New Year's eve! woohoo!!!!! A new year is about to start and I've already started a list of things I want to accomplish in the new year! :)
1- read one book a month, I can't remember the last time I read a whole book! I already have a book waiting for me to read. So tomorrow I'll start it. Then I might look up the books that were read in Oprah's book club. I'm pretty sure I'd find a book I'd like
2- knit a shawl for myself and not just any shawl. This one: Candle Flame shawl :) I think it's simply gorgeous! :)
3- think of myself for once! I've been living to please others for so long it ain't funny. This year is MINE!
4- I'll think of more I'm sure. LOL!
I guess I should post something at the top of my website similar to: if you are a parent and close friend please read this diary at your own risk! This is a place where I vent out. Where I let the steam out of my head. Doesn't mean I always feel like the way I write, sometimes just writing down what bothers me makes me feel all better. I am not going to feel sorry for someone who blames me if they never call. Friendship is more than just blamming stuff on the other person all the time. Some friendship survive over the years and some don't. I don't care anymore!
That said, today I feel great! LOL! :) I got to chat with Theresa twice in two days, haven't had that happenened for the past few months, so I feel lucky! ;) Theresa is like my knitting mentor, if I have a question I run over to ask her. She knows it all! LOL! Ok she'll say she doesn't but she knew the answers to all of my questions. ;)
We are starting a new knit-along with Theresa, a way to learn different stitches and then we'll make a block. This time not felted though 'cause my felting block didn't go as planned! ;) Guess I bought the wrong wool, at least I reused it to knit the soaker, so it wasn't lost. Ok, Ive been really enjoying knitting I think just about everyone knows it by now! ;) I REALLY like it, it's calming, exciting, frustrating (but in a good way!) LOL!
I'm going to work on a few socks in the next day and maybe make a dishcloth or two also. I really like the old knitted dishcloths alot and we just never have too many of them, right? ;) Here's the pattern I like: Grandmother's Favorite You can use these to wash, dishes, body, wipe baby's butt. Whatever you feel like! :) I like to male them in variegated colors!
Tonight we will watch Dick Clark's show as usual, look at the ball light up for the new year and then go to sleep! LOL! It's falling some ice rain outside so can't really go out, we should at least go buy some food though. The grocery stores will be closed for the next two days. Ugh! How bored we will be with no shopping to be done! LOL! I feel like eating pasta tonight, wil I win? ;)
hugs to all may the new year bring you happiness, health and just plain old good times to cherish! :)
Knit out!
p/s: working on my website, I will include the link to my knitting diary shortly! :)
Yes, I keep taking about babies! I know! :) They are sooooo cute when they are little. Well last night I was watching Labor & Delivery, I never watch the show so it was a surprise to catch it on tv! Babies and more babies were born, it was so nice to see. :) At the kids daycare there's a mom who just had twins, one girl and one boy. Did I write about that yesterday!? Anyway, WOW! twins, I'd want a set too. LOL! Then my family would be complete, 4 is my lucky number but I'm not sure I could do 2 more pregnancies to get to the magic number.
Anyway, in less than 35minutes we are crossing the street to go have lunch with our neighbours. I am not looking forward to it. The daughter is my age and is Zoe's godmother, the mother has alzheimer's and it's pretty advanced, the father smokes like chimney(?) and all our clothes reek smoke when we leave. UGH! They'll be happy to see the kids, they look sooooo fancy in their Christmas clothes. :) I still need to take a shower! ACK! I have nothing to wear so it'll be basic jeans and a "nice" sweater for me.
I've learned that the dad will give us money as a present, I'm going to feel very ackward opening such a gift in front of everyone, I just hope I don't break down or anything. We are counting the pennies until dh's next paycheck and I feel bad receiving money. Anyway we might get to do some little activities with the kids with this moeny. I have a few ideas that might make everyone happy we'll see.
So I better start moving, as everyone else is reading! LOL! I just wanted to update here 'cause I might forget later on. We bought some Carolans this week (it's just like Bailey's) and it's just soooooooooooooo good in coffee! :)
hugs to all, may you be happy in this festive time of the year! :)
I knitted 2 row of the diaper soaker today! LOL! but I won't have enough yarn to finish it, oh well. Maybe I should get a move on making my mom's scarf. Oh dear!
Ok after this post I'll stop talking about my sex life (LOL!) but for now I have to say it. We've been rabbits, we've been fooling around like crazy every night of this week. It sure is a problem to us to live with my mom who has seem to have insomnia this week too! LOL! We've like "will she ever go to sleep?" Ok end of my love life. ;)
I'm so HAPPY! :) I am easily pleased but it's so funny, yesterday dh and I were kid-less and talked about s*x all afternoon while walking down town. We learned alot about each other just by talking too. Now, it's REALLY the end on this subject. ;)
Today was the last time the kids went to see their friends at the daycare until next year. ACK! I know they will miss their friends in the next two weeks. I found little gifts for the 4 woman who take care of the kids. They each got a box with three tubes of bath "stuff", they included salts, confetti and caviar for the bath. I saw three of them open there gifts and they sure seemed pleased. I did reassure them that they all smell nice that it's for relaxing purposes! LOL! The younger of the "teachers" turned beet red when she received her gift. It was so sweet to see, I guess she didn't expect it at all. She's only 19yo but she's great with the kids, even I wish I had her as a friend! :) One of the ladies is leaving, sadly enough she is my favorite one. ;( She was filling in for someone else for 2 months, she had been there for 6 months prior to this and she can't stay any longer. You can really see her love for the kids, I wished she could stay at the daycare, both kids have learned alot with her there. This is the lady I'd send the kids for full-time daycare if she ever opened one. Needless the other "teachers" are good too, this one was just the best! ;)
I treated myself with some handmade soap and scrub yesterday. It might not be something I need but hey! it's Christmas and I treated myself that's all. It's not like I'll get many gifts... I should get one tomorrow from a friend, we are having lunch at her parents house. Then my mom should have bought me something and that's it. So, I splurge for MOI!!! :) We went to Lush yesterday and UGH! I don't like the hype all over this store, it's too expensive, not all that good smelling and I don't like the sellers attitudes there. So we walk a block more and arrive to my beloved Bella Pella and Oh my! I'm in heaven! The staff there is all really helpfull, they know their products as they make them themselves! I took a cold-process soapmaking class a few years back and I really want to take another one with dh, it'll refresh our memories about it and then we could make soap! :) They also offer classes on making masks and lotions. Right after the holidays I'm going to call them and ask about dates and prices. I am very eager to take a class like this. The 1st class we took was given by one of the owners of the little shop, she is one of the two girl who started this business right in their kitchen, so neat! :)
Wanna know what I bought myself at Bella Pella? LOL! I got: Amaretto moisturizing goat's milk & bitter almond and here's their description of the soap:
Amaretto liquor fans, this soap is for you! Contains ground coffee grains, which exfoliate the skin while the goat's milk deeply hydrates dry skin. Try not to give into your temptation to take a bite … it smells so good! Also in my gift giving to myself I purchased a Sugar Scrub for instand softening, they say it will do this: For deep moisturizing and removal of dead skin, try dabbing a little of this sherbet in your hand and work into a circular motion over legs and arms. Rinses off in shower. I now smell like an Amaretto shot. LOL! My mom smells the Huge soap bar each time she passes the bathroom. What is so nice about this gift for me is that it was WAY less than anything I could've bought at Lush and I'm simply in heaven. Merry Christmas to ME! :)
Well that's about it for now, I still need to pick up some food at Loblaws. We will most likely eat cheese fondue on Chritmas night and as we wait for Santa Claus we will feast on coquille St-Jacques. I have no clue what's the english name for these! ;) It's shrimps, fish and white sauce with cheese all cooked in a seashell. It's just a festive thing to eat, people usually eat seafood on new year's eve but we just ain't ordinary people! LOL! ;)
Well hugs to all, wishing everyone happy holidays!!! :)
I can't get this idea of a baby out of my mind! The other day a baby was born, like there is many born each day but now I wonder. Are we reading for a new addition in our family? Say, I were to be pregnant this month and start calculating stuff. Zoe and Lucas have 20months difference and this baby would be 31mo yonger than and 52mo younger than Zoe! LOL! That's all way too complicated for me right now but A WANNA BABY!!! ACK! So tiny, so snuggly, so little sleep, getting huge again, labor! UGH! I don't know.... Guess I will know if it's right or not, it's not like I can make it happen just by snapping my fingers. It's always a surprise when you are trying to conveive. So we'll see, dh and I better get talking too! LOL! Can't wait a baby all on my own.
I went shopping today! I found my mom her Christmas gift, at 10:15AM I was out of the store. I beat the shopping crowd, on the news they predicted today was the busiest shopping day before Christmas. I'm pleased with the gifts everyone will get. It's looking alot brighter than I expected, our tree is still not up. My mom said that The Bay has face trees on sale 50%off. I might check into those tomorrow. Maybe dh and I can go shopping downtown though. I have one more gift I'd like to get at a handmade soap place. It's for a friend that likes signature stuff so she'd appreciate this gift or else she's getting a box of fancy chocolate cookies! LOL!
I forgot about a printed pillow panel I have and it needs FIVE bags of poly-fill. ACK! Got the batteries for Zoe's sewing machine, I'll gather up some fabric to go with it.
Off I go, Zoe and dh are back from her time at the skating rink. She now wants a hockey sweater, I wonder where she got that idea! ;)
hugs,
I'm smiling.....
Last night, well early this morning as I am going to bed... dh and I... YOU KNOW!!!! After having lived through him leaving us twice and still not fully recovered from all that mess. We had SeX! Of course I had to just go out and tell someone right? LOL! It's been a few months and well, it was nice. Now this morning it got me thinking, wouldn't it be something that I'd be pregnant after all this time, just by this one time? I live september babies after all! ;) We'll see, we'll see, we surely aren't in the trying to conceive mode but who knows what the higher powers have in store for us. A baby, I haven't had a baby in so long! LOL! Well Lucas will be 2 years old a few days after Valentine's day. It would be neat to have a baby in the next year though, Zoe was born in '99, Lucas in '01 and a baby born in '03 would just fit perfectly! LOL!
Ok, ok, I'm just chatting away again. Tonight was the last episode of Survivor Thailand. I'm sad it's already finished, sad that I didn't want either players to win. At least it's not as bad as Flo and Zach winning the Amazing Race. Oh my God! Can someone shoot that whinning girl? UGH!!!!! Of course I'm already eager to see the next set of Survivor series, it'll be in the Amazone, the colors and views will be gorgeous. Then there's the annaconda snake! ACK! I'm happy I'll be watching safe at home from the couch. ;)
Oh back to a baby, how cute would it be to knit for a baby. aaaaaaawww! :) Well actually their might be a baby being born right now, a fellow diary mom is having contractions you can fellow her here: http://themama.diaryland.com/index.html
So as I was watching tv tonight, I finished the lef part to Zoe's 1st sock, this is a practice sock before I use the sock yarn I bought her. She's so excited! :) Talk about excited when she saw me sewing at the sewing machine this afternoon. She loves to sit down on my lap and help me sew. I can't wait to give her, her own little sewing machine on Christmas!!! :) I need to go buy 2 D batteries but other than that I'm set, I bought the machine at a 2nd hand store back in the summer. She's going to be so happy, I'll be stuck to have to sew all the time! LOL! She even demanded tonight that I sew her more clothes, she's so sweet, so encouraging me with sewing. Why, was I sewing you ask? ;)
Yesterday I started a fleece pouch for the kids asthma paraphernalia. I did my 1st appliques on them also. They are a bit wobbly as I pulled and pushed the fabric through.... Guess that's not how you should sew fleece. ;) I got the satin stitch look though. Once again I am proud of myself, it's nothing much, especially if I compare myself to other sewing moms but hey *I* did it! :) Lucas had a blast walking around the house holding his "asthma" pouch! :) I should sew more, I really like it but it can get so expensive! UGH! Everything is related to money. :( Fabrics, patterns, needles, thread and what else!? They all add up so fast!
On a good note, dh got his 1st paycheck today!!!! It's been at least 3 months since he didn't brought one to the house. I was expecting about 60$ less from what he got. I was happily pleased by this pleasant surprise! :) Immediatly I paid all our bills via the internet, how conveniant!!! Dh doesn't know the password to his account so he can't do anything via the internet. I still have his ATM card and won't be giving it to him anytime soon. He knows it and fully accepts it. I gave him his "allowance" that we agreed on and this evening we finished his shopping to get the kids Christmas gifts. So now my mom and dh are all set! I'm only missing my mom's gift and I think that's it. If I can find a great deal, I'll get her a camera with automatic quick loading film in it. She needs something EASY to deal with. I did buy her a kodak camera two years ago but the kids destroyed it! LOL!
Tomorrow dh finishes work at noon and is off for the next 2 weeks. In the afternoon the kids will get their flu shots, I sure wish I could get it too! LOL! But that's ok, it's more important for them than it is for me. Next monday both kids will be a daycare all day! :) Incidently, I read online about Mother's Day Out programs! I guess this is what the kids daycare is! I just never knew in english they had such a specific name for it! So I might say MDO from now on. It just sounds less "bad" than daycare! LOL! In my mind a daycare is when the kids go full-time and that's not we have. Its really a place where moms go to get a break, we can take classes (like parenting, crafting and even has a breastfeeding support group).
To finish something different.
Tonight I feel blessed for:
-my mom taking the kids for a walk while I got to sew
-dh for working again at a schedule that works for our family
-having food on the table, a house over our heads, clothes
-being happy, just plain old happy for one night! Hopefully it'll keep on being this way too! :)
hugs to all!!!!
Well long time no log! LOL! I've been busy! ;)
Friday was a date night, dh, Zoe and I went down town and we had a blast. Zoe got to go on a caroussel in a store and also ate a Happy Meal at McDonald's. I was the hero for a day! :) I don't get to be one very often. She was amazed at the Ogilvy's decorated window. I was pleased as can be. I used to love that window and looked forward to seeing it each year. It's fun to get to see my daughter's eyes light up just like mine used too at her age. :)
What did we do this weekend? I should've blogged back then 'cause I forget. ACK!
Well let's start with what I do remember, today! I went to my mommy group at the daycare. The kids were so excited to go today, it was their 1st time in two weeks back with the friends. (OH! I just remembered about monday! LOL! It'll follow after.) It was the last mommy group before the holidays, we won't have another chance to get together before 2 weeks. Someone brought liquor today and we all had spiked coffee! Some moms were sure laughing louder than usual! ;) I received a Christmas card from one of the mom's that really touched me. It said how I brought a breath of fresh air to the group and that without me it doesn't feel the same anymore. Being that I'm a VERY shy person, receiving such a nice note made me feel special for a moment. I've grown to like the moms that I really thought I had nothing in common with. Wednesdays are now an exciting day for me, each week I look forward to it. I talked to someone today about the Food Network TV. It was so surprising to know someone who had the satellite and then who watched Emeril and the New York chef that travels the world. She had 4 kids and we just don't have much to say to each other usually but WOW! we both watch Emeril! LOL!!! Both kids got a letter from the North Pole waiting for them at the daycare. I'm so happy they get the kids to write to Santa because I just forget to do that with them until say December 24th! We are very lucky to have such a daycare, it's probably because this isn't a full time daycare that the kids get more personalised attention and activities to do. Monday the kids will go for a full day, usually that's the day the center is closed but I guess it's a special before the holidays. It'll be nice 'cause we can get all the finishing touches down before the 24th.
December 24th is the only day we have something planned for the whole holidays. We are going for lunch across the street. Zoe's godmother, her boyfriend and her parents invited us over. I hope we have fun... I dread it a bit as usual but this year for different reasons. Her father smokes... TONS!!! He will not smoke in another room just to spare the kids. I hope they will be ok, I'm thinking we will stay two maybe three hours and then we can go take a nice walk. Hopefully the kids lungs will get to enjoy fresh air. I don't know what an asthma attack looks like, I'm so afraid I'd miss it and then.... you know.... I think about terrible things.
This just got me thinking, I got a call from the ambulance "company" today. When Lucas and I took the ambulance to the hospital back in October, I had still not paid the bill. There's been so many bills overwhelming me for the past few months, I've been late with all of them but now I'm getting back on track. They will all get paid by internet in the morning! Dh's 1st paycheck is supposed to be deposit at midnight! So I call back the lady about my ambulance bill and tell her I will pay it today, she then says that she called to offer me a way to pay in a few installment with no interest! WHAT!?!? I was in shock! What a great company! How often does this happen, so I told her that it would really help us and I'd be willing to pay have the bill right away and then half in a month. I really want to pay it off ASAP. I'd feel so bad if we needed to take the ambulance again with still the last bill over our heads. An ambulance can really be a lifesaver and I want to be on good terms with them.
Monday was the Chritmas party at the daycare. We had such a blast, the kids sang, danced, Santa came and gave them the gifts each parent had brought for their own kids. Then, we got a bonus!!! The local deputee came for a surprise visit she gave each child a toy, the boys each got a collectible car and the girls got little baskets of glitter gel and comb sets. I was proud of being a part of the daycare's board once the depute who is also the minister of culture (this might have translated wrong!). She talked about how the daycare's mission was a beautiful one for family's and it was all just very nice. :)
As a surprise to Zoe and a cheap way to practice for my mom's Christmas gift, I bought some sock yarn yesterday. Once ball should wield a pair of toddler sock and I'll need 2 balls of yarn for a pair of adult socks. I started knitting a pattern that should be ok for Zoe, I'm using fingering yarn which one TINY, very fine. I'm not sure what people use this yarn for in everyday life, it's yarn from the church sale I went to a few weeks back. Then one I make this little sock I'll use the sock yarn to make a pair for Zoe and then I'll be really ready to make my mom's pair. LOL! Quite simple, hun? ;) I'm also planning on making her a seed stitch scarf with variegated yarn, it's a gorgeous mix of colors. Mom says shes willing to e patient and wait for the new year for her socks. She wants socks instead of just a scarf but if I'm quick enough maybe I can make both! :) She's still surprised that I've been knitting so much. It's unbelievable it's true! LOL! Usually I like a new craft for a few weeks but that's it. I've been knitting for oh... 3 months! LOL!
I've been sewing too! Well, ok, I've been serging! ;) Nothing big, really basic even but once again I'm proud of myself! :) I've started asthma pump pouches! :) Lucas will get a blue fleece pouch with a drawstring on it, I will try to applique a big star on the bag as all his asthma related "stuff" has star stickers on them. Zoe has a red pouch and will get a heart applique if all goes well. My mom and I were at the fabric store tonight and they've been renovating the whole store. The yare having a boxing day sale on the 26th, the fleece will be on sale and I'm hoping to get some to make pants and a few a-line "sleeve-less" dresses for Zoe, the kind where you put a turtleneck under it. My daughter is very into wearing dresses, she LOVES them. I'm hoping I can try and sew her a few nightgowns. You know, one of those days where I have nothing to do! ;)
Last but NOT least! Thank you to those who read me! You might not realise(!?) it but it's really nice. Ok, some of you might know it as you blog your thoughts too! ;) I should take more time to get to know you all!!! I've been a bad diary reader and supporter. I have been stalking down a few knitting journals and didn't read the mommy ones as much. As you know being a mom is a TOUGH job, not always as appreciated as we wished but it is an important job and we do it as well as we can out of love for our children! So.... in a very quirky way HIGE FIVES to all the moms out there! We are doing great, we have beautiful children, healthy when we are lucky and loved and watched over when they are sick. To those who are pregnant, I wish you a great pregnancy filled with joy and happiness. For those who read me in the wee hours of the night, at least you know where your child is. It's the holiday season and some moms are hoping to hear from their kids for Christmas, some will and some won't. Ok I have no idea where this is going, sorry for the melo act. I'm tired lol!
Knit 1, purl 2! ;)
hugs,
p/s: the kids are now very cooperative when it comes to taking their asthma pumps. Alot of negociating but it works! So that's one less battle 4 times a day to deal with. ;)
I'm so HAPPY! :)
I'm only a seam away from finishing my 1st knitted sock! I couldn't be prouder of myself! :) I did it, I did it!!!! (for any moms out there, think of the Dora song!) LOL! It's such a rush to know I made this all on my own, with TONS of help from Crystal though! Waves to Crystal! :) I guess she does now deserve the needles I'm sending her. LOL! I need to get a move on that. So now when will I start the 2nd sock? I really want to complete this pair 'cause this one sock feels so comfy. Can't wait until the seam is done, it's only a detail until it's done but I'll work on that when the kids go to sleep tonight!
We got a nice check from the government yesterday! WOOHOO! It's enough for me to start breathing a bit. Gotta love being poor enough to qualify for tax return checks throughout the year. Especially at this time of the year, it's a great relief to see the brown envelope to my door. So we are splurging a bit tonight. Zoe and dh are taking a nap and as soon as they get up we are going downtown. Zoe will get to see an animated window display that is tradition to go see. Then I get to go check out the free exhibit of artisans that create wonderful things. It's always a pleasure to walk around the exhibit and of course this year I'll be noticing anything this has been knitted! :)
Where we will eat supper will be decided by Zoe! LOL! Also she'll get to ride a carroussel in a store. So I think we should have a nice evening. Lucas will stay home with my mom, he'll have his turn another day! :) Tomorrow we might go see Santa Claus at a mall about 45min away from by walk. We'll see if I feel like heading out to overly packed stores or not. We have plenty of crafts to do anyway so we'll see.
The kids are doing well with the asthma pumps. Zoe's taking her medecine even better than before. Lucas is "iffy" sometimes he does GREAT then at other times he just doesn't want to take it. So we only get battles half the time. ;) Dh even got Lucas to take part of his medecine while sleeping. Both kids are doing much better, they don't cough as much and just seem plain old happier too. It's a relief to see them back to all smiles again! :) We'll see if I go to the kid's clinic with them next week or not. We do need to get them their flu shots and yes, I will have them get it. If they really do have asthma I believe this shot can spare them alot of problems this winter. If they don't have asthma, I still think having the shot will help them stay healthy a while more than not getting it. If it weren't prescribed I wouldn't pay for the shot but since it is, why not? I know for MANY reasons I could say no to the shot but I won't! If this can help keep the kids healthy I'd get them the vaccine twice! LOL!
hugs, I'm in knitting heaven! :)
p/s: my website is now online! WOOHOO!!!! :) Now let's see, will I share it's addy with you...... or not? ;)
pp/s: my friday the 13th day is a great happy day.
It's the holidays, I am getting depressed. I LOVE Christmas, I HATE Christmas. All the happy people, the children with eyes lighting up when they see the lights, the decorated trees. We have no tree set up yet, we could get out our white ill looking fake tree. We've had it for more than ten years, a few branches are missing and it's just plain ugly. Seeing the tree out is pathetic. I can't even get excited with decorating it. The kids will be happy to see it once my mom feels we need the tree out. I, on the other hand, don't feel like partying and being all goody-goody happy. I am miserable and that's all. I don't feel happy and don't feel like faking being happy for anyone. My mom will do whatever and the kids will have their eyes shinning as always, dh will bring out candies and the kids will love him for it as always. Mom does anything and the kids don't care. I'm always the one that does the discipline here, I'm always the bad one that the kids love to hate. UGH! I'm just tired of my life.
Fed up of paying for dh's stupid money problems. *I* have paid all the bills for the past months, *I* have suffered not being able to buy what I want for myself, *I* have been the one explaining to Zoe that no we can't go eat at McDonald's because we have no stinkin' money! Me, myself and I have to be the one living in all this debt while dh is just well being a jerk! He's the one that got the pleasure to max out every freakin' credit card, he's the one that got to decide that he wouldn't pay bills when they came, he chose to eat out at lunch-time when he was working. Thus no more money by the weekend to take his family out for lunch.
I'm sick and tired of my life! ARGH! I'm sick of having to give kids asthma medecine and fighting them for it! I'm sick of hearing them cough, I'm sick of being myself sick. I just want to sleep, well nooooooooo, Lucas won't let mommy sleep! Lucas needs mommy at night! ARGH!
Oh and happy freakin' holidays to all! Off to pout! LOL! See I feel better already? So the kids will have only 1-2 gifts each and I will get one cheap gift from my mom. It's just not as happy and exciting Christmas like I used to long for when I was little. UGH! To be back to childhood sometimes....
Also this morning my alcoholic uncle called.... he left a message on the machine to call him back! I'm not calling and aready told my mom I'd prefer for him not to come visit us. Of course she'll let him stay at least one night AS ALWAYS. The is my dad's brother, he's the only family member that has seen both kids and he's the only one we still get news from. But he's a drunk, gets drunk when he comes, gets drunk when he leaves. That's all they do on that side of the family. Why submit my kids to that, if I can avoid it? UGH!
I'm 3 inches away from finishing my 1st knitted sock! :)
no hugs for anyone today! LOL! :P
Today is the anniversary of my father's death, 16 years ago he left this Earth. 3/4 of my life have been without him in it. Weird how most of these years were spent thinking he was my hero.... today, years later I realize that my mom is my hero. She raised me on a low income for many years and never said a word when I asked to go out and eat at restaurants instead of home.
Maybe having kids reminds me how we always take our parents for granted, at least I do. My mom has always been there for me and I just feel blessed to have her in my life. Ok some days, I wish we weren't so close though! LOL! We do live together but most days it works and I am happy to have such a close relationship with her. I think she likes having her grandkids around too! :)
Well now for the bad stuff! LOL! Today I went to the clinic for kids and learned that both of them have asthma!!! I was in SHOCK! I never expected such a response, I believed we were just going there to get told they had another bronchitis or pneumonia. So now 2 pumps for each, 2 shots I need to give them and one air chamber to help them take the pumps and I feel like a drugstore! No wonder the cough syrups weren't helping! SHEESH!
Now after talking to a few people I learn that the diagnosis of asthma might have been given to quickly. There should have been more tests done before the doctor decides if they are sick because of asthma! ARGH! Why should I need a 2nd opinion? Why can't I just expect that a doctor will treat my child well and give me a good diagnosis of what's wrong with them. Isn't that their job? UGH! It's been so difficult having Lucas take his medicine too, it's horrible! :( We need to hold him tightly and still he squirms away each time from it. Zoe is better, she had alot of fun decorating her pumps and Aero Chamber Plus with stickers! :) Hopefully by next week the kids will be better!
I'm going to try and have them go to daycare tomorrow. They are still coughing but now we know it's not from a cold. Also I'd prefer to be close by for the 1st few times they go back to daycare. Tomorrow is the mommy group chatting day so I'll be right next to the kids if needed. They need there pumps 4 times a day so they'll probably miss the daycare's outing on friday! ;( I'm so sad about it. Zoe was so eager to go see Santa Clause with her friends. UGH! I feel like a terrible mother not knowing they were so sick for these past few weeks, what if I had known they had asthma 3 weeks ago. They'd be probably feeling so much better. UGH! Being a mom is the worst job ever at times. How am I suppose to know about asthma? I never had it and didn't have close friends with it. I remember a few girls going to the hospital after asthma attacks but that's all. Why couldn't they just got the chickenpox! LOL!
I brought my knitting with us today but then OF COURSE I didn't have time to take it out of the bag! LOL! We waited maybe 15 minutes before meeting with the ped. Our regular ped had appt's today and he was 2 hours late, let's just say I was happy to not have an appointment today. I'd like to get a new ped 'cause the one we have is ALWAYS late. I hate waiting for nothing. Maybe I'll ask the mom's at the daycare, they all seem to know every ped in the area! LOL!
Tomorrow, big surprise! Carl will be off working, his new job that starts January 6th, has called, they need him to work this week and maybe next week. Oh well..... there goes my plans for friday! LOL! I was thinking either we go with the kids to see Santa Claus downtown or we could have spend the day just the 2 of us. Oh well...
That's it for now, today was a BIG day, I'm beat, I've been dreaming of my bed since 9pm! LOL!
hugs,
I am SO lame! UGH! I disappoint myself sometimes. As if I were brainless. Grrrrr!
So for the past few days, I was thinking of buying my own URL, to have my own addy on the web. I used to have playfelt.com, never did much with that name but still it was nice to have my own addy! LOL! So I thought of a name, martini.com. I searched it and it was GASP! available, much to my surprise. So I go and contact someone and pay to buy it. Well it dawned(sp?) on me to just try the addy. DUH! Not surprisingly enough it's taken, by oh lookie the Martini company. ARGH! I can't believe I really thought the addy was available for little ol'me to buy. I'm so disappointed, the site's concept was already all planned in my head. I head even searched for martini glass icons today and ARGH! I'm so LAME! :(
On another note, did I say already that Carl found a job? :) He's starting on January 6th at a food packaging plant. The mean contract of this company is packaging food for military meals. I think that's pretty neat! :) The new job place will be close enough from home so that dh can ride his bike to work in the summer. The pay is.... ok! LOL! Anything is better than nothing, so I'm pretty pleased! :) We just need to survive until then, I'm pretty confident but Christmas will be tight! Oh well... more handmade gifts to make! ;)
That's it for now, today is Sunday, a very non-productive day for our family! LOL! The kids each painted for a while on the easel. Dh woke up at 2pm, he's feeling pretty sick. I'm trying to pick up stitches from the sides on my 1st sock ever. That's pretty much it.
hugs,
Ok! It's official, I am SICK! :( Woke up this morning feeling worst than any other day this week. Carl also woke up awfully sick. UGH! This will be a loooong day, my mom was supposed to care for the kids today and us to take the day "off". So as we wake up, too early, at 8AM. She asks at what time we're leaving, DANG Woman! can't you see just getting out of bed is painful? My nose is all stuffed up, I have a migraine, AF should happily come by today, I'm constantly blowing my nose. SURE, I feel like going out and about today. Grrrr!
On a happier note, I went to that hateful yarn store last night! The mean seller isn't just mean to me! LOL! She also treats her boyfriend like crap, so I guess it's her karma. She was telling him off and all, wow! I almost went up to the guy and told him to just leave her sheesh! Anyway I found some Confetti sock yarn!!! Just like I saw on internet and at the same price, so I was exstatic as some might guess! LOL! As soon as I finish my first sock, I'll reward myself by buying one ball of sock yarn! :) As I was still knitting the leg part of my sock last night, I tried it on. Oh my, I felt so proud, it was so cool to try it on. :) My mom, dh and I all decided that a 6ince leg would look ok too, so I'm only inch away before FINALLY starting the heel. Next time I might try a toe up sock pattern. We'll see, we'll see. I wonder if with one ball of sock yarn, I'd have enough to make Zoe a pair, I'm pretty sure she'd be very happy with her own pair of very colorful socks! :)
Today there is a sale from a toy "library" that is closing, they are selling everything! Sadly enough, we don't have a car, apparently they are selling bigger toys also, like play houses and such. I was eager to go check the place out but now I feel too tired to even get dressed. Sigh! I'm sure the prices are really nice and all but I'm SICK! Whine, whine, whine. Why, oh why are we ALWAYS sick. :( I just want out family to feel better and stop buying cough syrup every week. They cost alot and if they don't work I don't want to spend my money for nothing. Oh this month I still need to make payments on 4 credit cards and need to pay the ambulance bill I got twice now. ARGH! I also wanted the Threads for Heads book that's on sale right now, the writer only reprints it when she feels like it, last time was back in July, I was too broke to buy it. Now I'm still too broke to buy it. UGH! Luckily at least I don't need to pay for knitting patterns, as the internet is filled with free patterns. It's really hard to have no money all the time. I know we are not THAT tight, as in we have to wait a month to buy something but if we buy cheese this week than we might have to wait a week to buy other things and that sucks. Especially since dh still doesn't have a job, oh yeah he did fax his resume somewhere last night! Good thing I had enough money to PAY for that too! So last night I bought dh's Christmas gift to Zoe. Crayola window markers or something. She'll be able to write on mirrors and windows with them. They were 3$ cheaper than elsewhere so they were affordable. I still need to buy his gift to Lucas. I'm tired of paying Carl's bills, paying for Carl's errors, paying for Carl's stupid actions! I did NOT spend on the credit cards, I did NOT want to cut them up and send them back to the credit companys, I did NOT then decide to go and buy on a credit card after it was cut up and sent back to the credit company. GEEZ! Ho does that make me look? Like a sweet jerk who is trying to play Visa. I shoul've sent the letter of non-responsible for Carl's spending when I said I would. UGH! I didn't.... then I accepted for dh to come back home and I've been paying for his never ending needs ever since. :(
Oh yeah! I'm sooooo happy he's back home, RIGHT? :P
hugs, gonna sneeze and knit for a while
Well... we are sick again, mostly both kids and I. :( I'm tired of us being sick! It's starting to get exensive to buy cough syrup every week especially since it's for nothing and then I buy another bottle the next week. ARGH! The last syrup I bought was from a homeopathic company, I always prefer to go the more natural, safer route when the kids are concerned. Now I'm thinking it was crap, 10 freakin' dollars that I can't afford just spending, down the drain. Tomorrow either we go back to the health clinic or I go back to the pharmacy and emcourage another pharmacology company. Grrr....
That said the kids probably can't go to daycare tomorrow afternoon. Today they didn't go and I missed my mommy group. I just didn't have the energy to go talk with a bunch of moms! LOL! Luckily my mom did make us waffles! :) Then I napped for most of the afternoon, that shows that I'm sick! LOL! I never take the time to nap. I'm still tired though, guess I'll start taking some vitamins or something. It's getting VERY cold outside and we can't take the kids to play out at these temps. Hopefully the winter will be nice though, a few nice snowfalls but not to many freazing cold days. I can dream.
The other day Zoe pushed Lucas and he fell flat on his face. Nose started bleeding! UGH! The pleasures of being a mom. :( Lucas did go on the potty the other day, I might have written about it though! It was pretty exciting! :) Now all he wants to do is walk around naked. My precious little baby is growing up too fast. I still want to wrap him up in a blankey and just hold him all day but he won't let me! LOL! ;)
I haven't knitted much today, maybe 10 minutes, if that! ACK! My first sock is now 4inches long woohoo! oh that's just the leg part! LOL! The pattern says to knit 11" for the leg but I'm going to stop at 8", it's taking long enough as it is, I can't wait to start working on the heel and foot part. It's the hardest part but anything other than knitting ribbing will be nice! LOL!
hugs, eyes are wanting to sleep.
I started knitting my 1st sock!!!!!! Well I started last night and it's going slowly but well! :) I am so happy about this project. In a way when I started knitting I hoped that one day I'd be good enough to knit a few pairs of socks. Just casting on this first sock made me "guiddy"(spelled wrong!). I keep thinking "oh my God! I'm knitting a sock!" lol! I know it's nothing for just about anyone on the Earth but it's a HUGE thing for me! :)
So my socks will be red, not firetruck red, more of a muted color. They are 80%wool and 20%nylon, the yarn is from Briggs&Little and the pattern is from the same company. I found it online and hopefully once finished the socks will fit. My mom hopes they'll be too tight on me and Carl hopes they'll be too loose. LOL!
Being that I'm doing a ribbed leg, this part is taking forever to do. So I might make a pair of kid socks after this sock and before knitted the second one. We'll see. I hope I can afford to buy some sock yarn soon and try that. This yarn I'm using is pretty thick and rough, knitting a thin, fine yarn might be fun. :)
Dh went for a job interview today, it's for a company that packs food for the military survival kits. Pretty neat, if you ask me! Dh said that it's an easy job and after being a special team mover for a moving company that dealt with pianos and HEAVY stuff, an apprentice butcher and lifting 400lb meat parts, this job would be a break for him! LOL! He'd be driving a forklift and lifting LIGHT boxes all day. The hours 7am-3pm would be very nice and the work takes 14minutes to get at by bus from home. The pay is decent so now I'll we have to wait for is them to call back! ;) When he 1st called them this morning to inquire about the job they said they had an opening starting January, they then called an hour later saying they'd like to meet him today, there's a job he could be qualified for right now. On the way home after the interview he even got a ride from the boss who lives like 5 streets away! LOL! This would be a great job. Dh saw people going in and right out of the interview room and he stayed a good 15-20 minutes in there and met a few supervisors while touring the plant. They didn't make every tour the place. Oh how I hope he gets the job..... I hate getting my hopes up to quickly though. On the other hand.... we have MAJOR bills that need to be paid. I hate having to deal with calls from credit card companies.
I got the bill from when Lucas and I took the ambulance to the hospital back in October. Next time we are taking the taxi! :P Well, no, I wouldn't have changed anything as going by ambulance we did get to meet with doctors quicker than those who came by there own means of transport. I haven't paid the bill last month so I should at least pay something on it this month! I'm going to try to call them soon and say that I'll pay half this month and hopefully half next year! LOL! Next year being next month! ;) Hopefully they'll be ok with it, there interest rate is REALLY low. I sure would like to have such a low interest rate on my main credit card.
Lucas is sleeping in Zoe's beatle car bed tonight, he's so cute, so small in it too. :) Hopefully he'll sleep well and only come bother mommy around 7am tomorrow morning! teehee! I can dream! ;)
hugs to all.
maybe I can squeeze in one last row of knitting on my sock before going to bed. :)