Today is the anniversary of my father's death, 16 years ago he left this Earth. 3/4 of my life have been without him in it. Weird how most of these years were spent thinking he was my hero.... today, years later I realize that my mom is my hero. She raised me on a low income for many years and never said a word when I asked to go out and eat at restaurants instead of home.
Maybe having kids reminds me how we always take our parents for granted, at least I do. My mom has always been there for me and I just feel blessed to have her in my life. Ok some days, I wish we weren't so close though! LOL! We do live together but most days it works and I am happy to have such a close relationship with her. I think she likes having her grandkids around too! :)
Well now for the bad stuff! LOL! Today I went to the clinic for kids and learned that both of them have asthma!!! I was in SHOCK! I never expected such a response, I believed we were just going there to get told they had another bronchitis or pneumonia. So now 2 pumps for each, 2 shots I need to give them and one air chamber to help them take the pumps and I feel like a drugstore! No wonder the cough syrups weren't helping! SHEESH!
Now after talking to a few people I learn that the diagnosis of asthma might have been given to quickly. There should have been more tests done before the doctor decides if they are sick because of asthma! ARGH! Why should I need a 2nd opinion? Why can't I just expect that a doctor will treat my child well and give me a good diagnosis of what's wrong with them. Isn't that their job? UGH! It's been so difficult having Lucas take his medicine too, it's horrible! :( We need to hold him tightly and still he squirms away each time from it. Zoe is better, she had alot of fun decorating her pumps and Aero Chamber Plus with stickers! :) Hopefully by next week the kids will be better!
I'm going to try and have them go to daycare tomorrow. They are still coughing but now we know it's not from a cold. Also I'd prefer to be close by for the 1st few times they go back to daycare. Tomorrow is the mommy group chatting day so I'll be right next to the kids if needed. They need there pumps 4 times a day so they'll probably miss the daycare's outing on friday! ;( I'm so sad about it. Zoe was so eager to go see Santa Clause with her friends. UGH! I feel like a terrible mother not knowing they were so sick for these past few weeks, what if I had known they had asthma 3 weeks ago. They'd be probably feeling so much better. UGH! Being a mom is the worst job ever at times. How am I suppose to know about asthma? I never had it and didn't have close friends with it. I remember a few girls going to the hospital after asthma attacks but that's all. Why couldn't they just got the chickenpox! LOL!
I brought my knitting with us today but then OF COURSE I didn't have time to take it out of the bag! LOL! We waited maybe 15 minutes before meeting with the ped. Our regular ped had appt's today and he was 2 hours late, let's just say I was happy to not have an appointment today. I'd like to get a new ped 'cause the one we have is ALWAYS late. I hate waiting for nothing. Maybe I'll ask the mom's at the daycare, they all seem to know every ped in the area! LOL!
Tomorrow, big surprise! Carl will be off working, his new job that starts January 6th, has called, they need him to work this week and maybe next week. Oh well..... there goes my plans for friday! LOL! I was thinking either we go with the kids to see Santa Claus downtown or we could have spend the day just the 2 of us. Oh well...
That's it for now, today was a BIG day, I'm beat, I've been dreaming of my bed since 9pm! LOL!
hugs,
Posted by Jo at December 10, 2002 11:14 PM