Good grief Charlie Brown

I know this will sound like a 'poor me' post and quite frankly it is one. Each year after Christmas, I find it hard to read blogs and knitting forums. I see what everyone received as gifts and it hurts, I know it's silly but I am honest and of course... a little jealous. Sure, I did receive a gift or two but you know how it is when you dream... We can't afford many extras at the moment so logically I wasn't the main focus at Christmas. I know, I know, it all sound really silly, I KNOW. Of course my kids had a terrific time filled with many surprises (that doesn't mean they got a house full of new toys either). I probably resent the fact that their dad didn't do a single thing to get involved with their holidays. Argh... Yes, I will someday get pass that too but the 1st year is always hard. Just like the 1st year after someone close has died, once you get passed all the special holidays, it gets easier, at least I hope so.
Well now that I got over the 'Good grief Charlie Brown Jo' rant, let's get back to knitting, shall we?

Over the weekend, I have knitted Lucas a
helmet liner aka
hat and neck warmer combo. He always forgets to wear something to cover his neck so this is perfect and he actually likes it too. LOL! I've knit it with O-Wool organic yarn so it's soft enough for my little softy kiddo. I can't wait to wash it and it gets even softer, Lucas is going to want to sleep wearing it. teehee! See... we have this saying here, each time we buy new shoes, boots or this week skates, we always say that we like them so much, we will sleep wearing them. Not practical and we never actually let the kids sleep with shoes, boots or skates on but it's funny.
With the new year coming I guess I could make a few resolutions. Crafting wise, I hope to spin more and perhaps get back to cross stitching. I have a few charts already kitted with the fabric and threads just waiting to get stitched. I am motivated to try knitting more fair isle and get out of my 'comfort zone' but again, knitting for me is calming so I don't want to stress over my projects. LOL!

I have to share the story of this unknown husky. On the last day of school prior to the holidays, I looked out our window into the backyard and nearly died. I saw this husky peacefully sleeping next to our outside Christmas tree. The kids weren't too sure if they liked the idea of a dog in their yard. We all just stared at the dog for a while. Remembering that we have neighbors with two huskys, I ran over to their place to see if they had 'lost' a dog. The owner looked at me like I have two heads or something and both his dogs came stepping out of his home, logically 'our' husky wasn't his. I came back home and we just all stared at the poor sleeping dog. After a while he woke up and just looked around his new surroundings, he eventually got up and walked away. Thank goodness we didn't meet him on our was back from school, the kids and I would have freaked out. LOL!
So from our family to your's may the new year bring you peace, health and joyous times. 
Posted by Jo at December 31, 2007 11:36 AM
The first post-split Christmas is a big part of the "black pit of despair" that you have to wallow in for a while.
Your kids will be fine, as long as they have a loving mother in the picture, which they obviously do.
And one day, a new man will spoil your ass rotten!
Jo, I was so happy to see some recent posts from you! Yay! I don't blame you for feeling a bit sad and sorry for yourself after a rocky Christmas. It's tough to live on a tight budget. But one thing I notice is every time you post pics of your beautiful kids, they always have big, happy smiles on their faces. The time you spend with them and the things you do are giving them a wonderful childhood, and no money can buy that. :-)