May 20, 2006
Against the odds,
In my last post I wrote how life was tough right now and wouldn't get any easier. Well let me tell you it's been down right awful for a 24 hour period then, luckily it got better. Let's just say that hate is a very bad feeling to have and especially when it is felt towards a neighbour. I really thought that at one point in the day I was going to have a panic/anxiety or even a heart attack but I tried my best to stay calm and remain positive. Actually I had to remind myself to breathe slowly a few times as I could feel my heart pounding like crazy. Now all this is already in the past in a way but for me to get over it will take some time. Our neighbour had a personal vendetta towards our family and took the worst of times to steer it toward us. In a happy note we proved him wrong, (damn right we did!) he was wrong but police was involved and all we can do is wait for the future.
Carl is back (was back before all this exploded) and the kids couldn't be happier (of course), yet he now sees that it will take some time for them heal from his last 'escapade'. He's matured a lot recently and is starting to see that family IS important and that our couple deserves to be stronger than ever. It feels good to know he's been working at it, now I shall try to do the same.
A few days ago, I got a call that confirmed Zoe's soccer season just won't happen. It really annoys me because we were told one thing and then another happen, now her coach called and told me I better hurry to get my money back. Say what!? You messed up and I may be out of 100$? I think not... It's sad enough that Zoe looses out on the fun, Lucas is SO looking forward to starting his soccer. I'm hoping we'll find something else for Zoe, it's not fair what the soccer club did but I don't want my kid to feel like she has nothing to do all summer. My big girl is turning 7 next week and for now all my energy is put towards making it a great celebration. ;)
Perhaps I have something big for her up my sleeve, perhaps... 