Tomorrow starts the seventh day of my second internship, then there will be eight days left before my program is officially over. I met with someone from school yesterday and after talking way too much, she A) said I had a really cute belt! B) said that perhaps optics is not for me... C) to call her tomorrow to decide what I should do next.
I haven't said much about this internship as I don't know how to say that basically it sucks. Here I am stuck in a place where I know people would do just about anything to get into the company and I just want to run away. Actually I feel like I haven't had a fair chance compared to the six other interns from my class in the same place. I have been used as a Gofor (go for this, go for that), today I used a machine that engraves the company name onto the lenses. Anyone can use that machine but I was just so happy to be away having to clean 300 lenses with acetone. I used the fog machine (you slightly see the logo when you fogthe lens, it's proof that you get what you pay for when buying lenses from this company), so I was on that machine for an hour then it was back to cleaning lenses.
For the past two days, I have been wiping clean lens after lens standing on this 3'X6' rubber mat. That's it! Frankly I'm not sure I went to school for 5 months just to learn how to clean lenses but oh well, sadly I have been in three departments and none have appealed to me. Basically everyone's been treating me like dirt and sadly, I believe I am more worth than what they are treating me like. On the 1st floor there's three guys from my class and they are all given more tasks than I in the same places I was in. Maybe I have a face that says that I am just not apt to do 'real' work or something. It's tough though to see others getting to use machines and have chores that really do mean something in production. I am feel like I'm filling in places that usually no one is working at. Ugh!
This is all coming out weird but if I wrote what's in my mind in french, barely anyone would understand. LOL! ;) Tomorrow I will go in at 7am, clean lenses, not stress over trying to be the fastest lenses wiper in the world and call school. Then..... maybe, just maybe my first internship workplace would accept to see me again for the rest of my internship. At least, I'd actually be happy to wake up in the morning. I sure don't feel worth-less there, they always thanked me at the end of the day, saying how much they appreciated my help.
I did learn a lot about myself since starting school, one VERY surprising thing that keeps coming back is that I am told I am a perfectionist!!! Oh my goodness, I was floored hearing that for the 1st time, I consider myself the total opposite though it is true I want to be good at everything the 1st time I try. LOL!
Now, if only I really knew what I wanted to be when I 'grow' up. It would make my future so much easier...
hugs,
Posted by Jo at October 27, 2005 10:37 PM