June 15, 2005
Think happy thoughts,
After a major meltdown yesterday afternoon, my whole life went and turned upside down and over again. Then I read the paper (I have this weird thing that is that I like to read the classified ads, I used to read them all, now I try to contain myself and read only a few pages). LOL! Today I went to a school that had an ad in that paper, I go back again tomorrow and if all goes well both Carl and I might start school before this very month ENDS!!! If all goes bad well I'll just blog about that. ;)
As some might have noticed, I have been quite down these past few weeks, I haven't worked since april 29, yet I still have troubles with the same employers that were so eager to show me the door. Then the course I have been talking, dreaming, planning to attend next fall turned out to be full until august 2006, I've been thinking about this course for two years. Now was the only time I could get into the class, next year the situation and opportunity just might not permit that. So I was blue, A LOT! I've been having crying, screaming, down spells. We talked about moving so much that I was even looking into getting Zoe to start her 1st grade in another province, in a language she barely knows too. This was all about me (hey it's my blog after all!), I did think of the kids, of Carl, of my mom. All just want to see my happy again, all know how hurt I have been about work, the school being full. We still have dreams of moving somewhere else though but maybe I can hang in this province for a while longer.
Now I am starting to feel hopeful, could this really happen, could happiness knock at our door once again? After getting more information about the said course Carl got excited over it too, it would be really nice to go back to school after a ten year break and have someone to cheer and cheering me on along the way. I think we are both afraid to step foot into a classroom again. Luckily this place is made exactly for people like us. The program coordinator that we met today wanted to register us on the spot but sadly we need to go through the whole learn more about the job, do some test, get the individual interview and have ourselves accepted process to get into the program. The good thing is that the coordinator seemed to love us and she's the one doing the interviews, she also said she'd make sure we do everything to get into the course. I'm happy, I'm hoping it'll work!
So if it's morning when you read this, mind to have a good thought or two for two people that hope to change to course of their lives to make it better? In a matter of months we would learn a new trade, get on the job practice and hopefully find a job asap, chances are really good, they created the program as there is a big void in this job right now.
Oh please, please, Puh-LEASE make this work!!! :)
Now see that? See how close it is until I get older, teehee! Weeee! I love my birthday, always had, it isn't as exciting on the gifts part as I get older but I still love getting birthday cake. LOL! Nothing makes it more birthday than buttercream frosting though I might surprise everyone and try out ice cream cake this year, though I could wait and get that for the next birthday in line, right mom? ;) When it's someone's birthday in the house I sing them happy birthday all day long, the kids got used to it, I'm quirky they love it!
Too excited to knit, will post about it another day.
Posted by Jo at June 15, 2005 10:10 PM