October 10, 2003

Courage, swatchy

Courage

I started a sweater for Zoe, it was going well and now, I'm in a funk, not sure I want to keep at it. Starting some swatching for a new yarn also. Well actually this yarn was a pain. I wound it because I could see three ends to it, well I ended making 3 balls of yarn with a 6 once skein. SHEESH! At least I'm happy to know right from the start. I'd show you pics of the yarn but it's pastels which won't show up much anyway. Also not sure I want my might-go-in-labor-at-any-second friend to see what I am starting yet. ;) The color of the yarn is Angel print, isn't that precious though? LOL!

Here's my little non-knitting bit of the day.

It takes courage to become a parent or maybe it is a grain of craziness. LOL! To actually want to submit yourself to the needs of a child can be overwhelming at times. There are no breaks, the pay isn't why we do it and the gratitude isn't always shown by the kids. So why do people still want to become a parent and stay up until the middle of the night just 'cause we are worried, go to a sleeping child and see how they are breathing. Walk around on the tip of our toes, just to sneeze and wake them up as we are about to go to sleep. Worry about the sniffles, fever, if they are nice to others, hope they make good friends and take the best decisions. Accept when they decide to do stuff we would rather them not. Encourage them even if we know they will make mistakes to learn on their own.

What can I say, I love being a mom (some days more than others LOL!) and I would do it all over again BUT maybe I'd change a few things. ;) I am starting to realize what it means when people say, "if only I were younger and knew everything I know now". I see many occasions slip by and know that if the same events happened in ten years, they wouldn't bother me one bit. I need to grow up, in my head I am still 16yo but I can't go back in time, nor would I want too. ;) If only I knew then what I know now....

Wishing a wonderful Thanksgiving weekend to the Canadians out there. :)

Posted by Jo at October 10, 2003 08:05 AM
Comments
happy thanksgiving! Posted by: gg at October 10, 2003 08:29 AM
You hit the nail right on the head there, Jo. I sure wish I hadn't been so fretful and paranoid when my kids were teeny little babies. I would have enjoyed that precious, fleeting time a little more. I too am 29 years old going on... 14? 16 on a good day? I sure don't feel like I'm an adult. Posted by: Ginny at October 10, 2003 09:19 AM
Hehe, right on! I always used to ask prospective parents why they want to DO this. I told them that kids are messy, expensive and totally annoying stealing your life as you know it. I got these blank stares back with disgust and what not in their expressions. I looove my kids and would have had many more if I could. I like all ages, especially those terrible teenagers. But I also like people to be realistic, and if they care more about the couch or the color of their car, maybe kids are not such a good idea ;) Like with so many things in life, you get the greatest joy from beings that can also be the greates pita, hehe... Posted by: Maus at October 10, 2003 01:40 PM
You've said it very well, Jo! :) I wish I had enjoyed my kids' infancies a little more, but I know I'm enjoying every (well, nearly) second of them now. And according to the quiz I took yesterday, I'm 35 going on 6. Posted by: Lisa at October 10, 2003 02:17 PM
Happy Thanksgiving, Jo! :) Posted by: alison at October 13, 2003 01:22 AM