I feel happy tonight! :)
I worked on knitting my bag only a bit but had a great tv night. I watched the Gilmore Girls for the first time in so long. I felt like I could be the young girl who's just starting out in life. Oh to go back in time with what I know now! LOL! I sound JUST like my mom but it is so true. At 16yo I was an ackward teenager, I tried to rebel against school and what I did was skip most of my classes. Then what was to happen did, my great grades went down to not so great but still I was in enriched classes year after year. The drive to achieve wasn't there anymore though, school wasn't a priority of mine and I didn't feel like giving it my all either. I never went to college more than 2 weeks and then dropped out. I figured college wasn't made for me, I wanted to live life, party and so I did just that for a few years. I'd go out 5 nights a week. I did party! I did think I was happy while ingurgitating tons of beer a night. I wasn't, I had a 34-23-34 figure, never needed to check what I ate and still was I happy? Nope. I was lost, hadn't accepted the death of my father from when I was a child, hadn't accepted the fact that I wasn't doing anything with my life. So I did what was easy to me and party. Oh and best of all? I'd party in a gay bar! LOL! I did surprisingly enough meet my now fiance right outside of the said bar. ;)
Why am I rambling about my school years? Because I am thinking of going back and sit in a classroom, on my little chair taking notes all day and ACK! study again! Am I crazy or WHAT!? ;) For the first time in 7 years I am seriously thinking about going to school. This is a surprise to even myself. There's this one year course that I could take which ends up with a diploma for assistant pharmacist. If I graduate I'd even start at a salary higher than what Carl is getting at his present job. Something to think about if I really want a better future for our family. Also if Carl ever pulls his stunt of leaving us "again" I'll be able to provide for my kids. :)
I knitted the bottom of my bag before finishing the body, I wanted to make sure I had enough to have a bottom on my bag! LOL! I don't care if I don't have any wool to make the straps, I believe the bottom was more important! ;)
Happy news, Theresa and Ethan are back home from the hospital! :)
hugs,
Posted by Jo at January 15, 2003 10:32 PM