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S is for Smile

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For the past week I've been going to sleep around 10pm, I sleep at least 10 hours a night. It feels GREAT, I have so much sleep to catch up. I don't just wait up for Carl anymore, since now I know he won't come home, so I go to sleep earlier. No need to stay glued to the computer anymore. I've unsubbed from my main Paint Shop Pro yahoogroups. No more pressure to provide 2 graphics a week. I'll do PSP when I feel like it.

I've been knitting alot too, nothing is coming out of it though! LOL! Maybe it does help me to relieve the steam in my head though. I'm still working on what was to be Carl's scarf. Guess it'll be mine now but I don't like it! LOL! It's only a basic garter stitch scarf but the yarn is scrachy and I want to start Theresa's knit-along darn it! LOL! We're making felted blocks. I found some 100% wool yarn at the non-friendly sewing/yarn shop. I can't wait to go to a real yarn shop! There's one I want to go but have to wait until the kids are at daycare 'cause they'll go crazy running around touching every yarn! LOL! Just like me but I'll try to be more civilized! ;)

This week will be a nice busy week. I like busy, keeps my mind busy. So I don't go into a slump and do the "poor me" number. I don't want to play victim, of course some days are tough and I get mad and think about Carl out partying and what not. At least I'm around my kids while they grow up and won't have to play catch up to learn who they are when they grow up! I can go to sleep with my conscience at ease that I'm doing my best to educate my kids! Also I am taking "parenting" classes to help me become the parent I'd like to be. Controlling anger, learning about how discipline can actually be a good thing! lol! ;) The classes are good for me, I get to see and talk with other moms and the kids get to play while supervised.

So this week my mom will be busy with her friend's move, she's leaving for Italy! :( So my mom will be over at her place to help with the move. Monday and Tuesday are her last 2 days there. I'll be at the daycare tuesday:00 PM for a class, wednesday:00 AM to volunteer and go to the mommy group, thursday:00 PM is my crafting class and maybe friday I'll have a spot for the kids and I'll get a lil'break before the weekend. While I'm at the daycare, I don't care for the kids care, so that's nice and it gives them a chance to socialize with little friends and I get a well deserved break.

Today we might go to the public library and bring back Carl's books. ICK! I know it's not my responsibility but if he never comes back, I don't see why others couldn't benefit from the books he took. Anyway they are boring and I wouldn't even keep them if I could. LOL!

So that's it for now! Gonna go dance to Dorothy the Dinosaur song. The Wilgges, woohoo! ;)

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