I didn't update last night because he never called.. Of course... So there I am lying in bed wondering if he'll call or come to sleep home or what?
Then 03:30am, Zoe throws up in bed 3 times! ICK! Luckily, I sleep right next to her bed so I heard her, I can only imagine if I didn't hear her. Anyway, I clean everything and by miracle Lucas never wakes up from the commotion. Then I get MAD, (of course!) why can't he be the one doing the cleaning? Why is it that men have it "easy" by leaving their home and the moms have to take care of all. Why can't they just get responsible and take care of those they love? Zoe wanted to talk to daddy at 03:30am, I paged him FIVE times. I guess he was busy... Poor Zoe she had left him a message on his pager at 9pm and he hadn't called back for that either. I can see that she's really affected by the situation.
Then this morning, I page him, well shockingly he calls back. Apparently he couldn't before 'cause they are working on a big building and he slept on a "crane"? like 450" in the air. He talked to Lucas on the phone and Lucas was hugging the phone, (it's been 20minutes ag and he's still hugging the phone!) Zoe was still sleeping so she didn't get to hear him. He said he'd call back.... he BETTER, I told him Zoe REALLY wants to talk to him.
While on the phone I asked him a few questions, does he want to come sleep home tonight? (-maybe) Does he want to move out? (-well, should I? he said) I even asked if he wanted to move out with the kids and I'd go see them on the weekends. He said "yeah, that might be a good idea!" WHAT!?!?!? When you're home you can't even resist giving them candy everyday and you "forget" to play with them and you never take time to remember to brush their teeth. You want to just move out with them? UGH! No!
I'm so miserable ;-(
p/s: Thank you Shannon for your words. :) Hopefully we will get a time to sit and try to work through our problems but I don't know... We'll see.
Posted by Jo at October 11, 2002 08:20 AM