Yeah, yeah I'm alive.
It's been going down the drain between Carl and I. UGH! Today is thursday, I have a board meeting at the kid's daycare and this afternoon is my crafting class. GEEZ! All I want is a break but now this week has been so busy. I seem to be running after time.
Last friday, dh leaves for work at 7am and he comes back saturday at 04:30pm! Do we see a problem here? Of course eby 09:30am on saturday I paged him to see if he was still alive. Hello? Why don't you call your own family!? AnYwAy! Staurday was the day we met 5 years ago, basically what we call our anniversary. 1/ he forgot 2- he lives for the evening "cause the boss needs me!" So sunday being so tired that he is, he sleeps in until 12:30pm. Takes the kids to the park after I blew up in his face. He has taken the kids to the park on his own maybe.... 3 times in 19months?
Monday and tuesday he gets home at 3am and 2am. We are NOT a freakin' hotel Mister. You must call to warn your family that you are not dead when you will miss supper. It's as simple as that, if you work after 6pm, please call home. What boss makes his employees go home at 2-3AM and expect them to be in top shape to work by 7am? That freakin' boss!
Wednesday, well he called to tell me he'd be home early! HUN? Why call to tell me that? LOL! Well as he gets home, I learn that his boss he told him he HAD to go play street hockey, to show good team spirit, blablabla bulls***. As he was waiting for his ride to work I BLEW UP, EXPLODED in his face. What I kept inside for the past year just came back up to be shooted in his face. Yes the HORRID tattoo he got last year on the day of our 4th anniversary, yeah I STILL think it's ugly!!! Yeah, I still think that in your head you act like a college boy, wake up 'Cause you the family man now! Yeah, you, the one that wants to go at it in bed when I just told you that SeX was being put on hold until we resolved our problems. What if I got pregnant? Would you still be there in 9 months!? Ooooooh, I didn't think about that" he says! ARGH! Well start thinking Mister!
So what does he do? He slept at a co-workers place last night! Me like a dumb chick I stayed up to wait for him. I go to sleep at midnight each at every night hoping to catch a glimpse of him as he walks in the house to get in the shower and then to bed. I hate having to tell the kids "Daddy loves you!" 'cause he sure doesn't show it too well, now does he? So I paged him twice this morning! Guess I really wanted to know what's up, hun? Well, he was thinking, that's why he stayed at a friend's house. Well what now? Since you've been thinking, what should I expect?
So he says he realized that he's the source to every fuckin' problem in the house! Oh please, you aren't THAT special, life isn't just surrounded around your little person! Well the call was cut short, seems the guys were waiting after him to go work. How can I expect him to provide for his family when each and every time we get into a fight he disappears and sleeps elsewhere? I told him that, he says he'll call back later on.
Hopefully he won't go out and kill himself! 'cause then what? UGH! Can I go back to sleep? Well, nooooooooo got to wake up the kids, tell them to hurry, hurry get dressed, eat breakfast, mommy neeeds to jump in the shower. We run to daycare then I sit for 3 hours at the board meeting. Got to figure out where to eat lunch with the kids and still have time to have them run around at the park and after 60minutes of this "fun". Gotta go back and run to get to my crafting class on time, sit 3 hours and do "stuff". Get home, exhausted, snap at the kids, if I'm lucky they'll nap. Then as an idiot I'll wait for the call dh will never make.....
Knit on! LOL!
Posted by Jo at October 10, 2002 07:40 AM