June 09, 2002

still blue

Well the day wasn't worth being written about but here I go anyway. I've been wanting a break of everything and I will not get it!

Lucas cried and cried right before supper so I took him in my arms for a walk outside. Is it true that that if bird poop hits you, you'll have luck in your life? UGH UGH UGH! Could this day be any worse!?

I better get some lucky days ahead because I am simple FED UP! I felt like going out tonight, where!? Who cares! but I knew it wasn't possible. As I type these words Lucas is crying for the 3rd time since we've put him down for sleep 2 hours ago. That child can't live without me and I NEED a break.

Mister X, please come into my dreams tonight? I desperately need to smile. I want to be happy and how I am living my life right now just isn't going to make it happen.

Carl thinks I get mad at him just because I am tired. How can I get the message accross!?

~Sweet dreams~

Posted by Jo at June 9, 2002 12:28 AM
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