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obsession

Obsession by Webster

Main Entry: ob·ses·sion

1 : a persistent disturbing preoccupation with an often unreasonable idea or feeling;

Well, you came into my dreams last night. This was not the 1st time, I missed you. Each time we go out, I wonder, will we see you today!? I live in the past, five years ago is where I'd still want to be. Where each time I went to the club everyone knew my name. When going out happened every night. Freedom and fun was my main goal. Having breakfast at 4am, hanging out with bar owners and getting a free drink. LOL!!!!! When money was not a problem. When I could sleep all night/day without anyone waking me up. ARGH!

I wish I was back in the past with you. I miss you, your smile, your family. ;-) The feelings I felt when I was with you, the comfort your room brought to me. The smiles you gave me, the memories we made.

I wish I had gone to school, wish I had given myself more of a chance for the future.

You're the one that I want, the one I need... J'esperais tellement plus de ma vie. Pas plaisant la vie de mère au foyer.

Well it's saturday, my reason to live today is checking out garage sales. Two doors down, there's one, last year we got Lucas enough clothes for him to wear 2 seasons.

I will soon be 25 years old! WOW! I feel like I want to be 20yo though. I don't like this "adult" life and want to go back in time. Why is life so pleasing to some and awfully boring to others!? I told Carl to move out... He hasn't. He gets on my nerves, he will go to work sunday night. No day shift for him in the near future. I am fed up of the night shift! I want out!

p/s: Goodbye my love, à ce soir dans mes rêves...

pp/s: if I emailed you, would you reply!?