Rain...
Feel it on my finger tips
Hear it on my window pane
Your love's coming down like
Rain ~Madonna~
Today was gray out, rainy and cloudy all day. Nothing exciting happened, the kids did get on my nerves most of the day. Dh spent the afternoon up with us and went back to sleep after supper.
Tonight, my mom left with the kids a good hour and it helped me cool down. By the time she came back it was bed time for them.
Tomorrow is my cake decorating class, we will be playing with marzipan.
Right now, I'm watching a Hallmark movie, yes I'm a sucker for sappy movies! I love them, they are the best when I need a good cry. It's Cupid & Cate, just when Cate finds the man of her dreams and gets engaged she learns he has leukemia. She discovers she is pregnant as he starts his 1st round of chemo. A baby boy arrives in their lives and the dad goes back to the hospital. The movie is almost finish and the tears will probably start soon.
I'm tired, I know Carl and i as far from perfect. It's soooooo far from perfect, I don't know what to do anymore about it. Every time I confront him about it, he nods and life is still the same. I can't live through another night of him working the night shift while I need help with Lucas up all night. I can't live through another day of him sleeping while I still need help with the kids. I want to sleep so badly. I think of past relationships I had, one particularly, how is he doing!? I wonder.... I know there is a reason we aren't together anymore but I still wonder. There's no wedding this year, I was hoping it would happen but it ain't! I wanted Lucas to be blessed on the same day but that won't be happening either. October 5th marks our 5th anniversary, will we last that long to even celebrate it together!? I wonder...
Back to my movie, eyes are tearing up.
Posted by Jo at June 5, 2002 10:27 PM